I have been mulling all of this over in my mind and praying for the right time to share this part of my life here. Several years ago, I used to write on another blog. The other blog was a place for me to share about our adoption story and journey. While our current journey is “on hold”…I do enjoy sharing our story and the details. If sharing this stuff can help one person, it will be worth it!
I am going to be transferring the other blog writings onto Blessed and All The Rest…and over time will be sharing the last couple years’ journey with you. All the highs and lows.
Hopefully, these stories will help someone. Most importantly, I pray that God’s glory will be shown in every single part of this! The wonderful and tough stuff alike!
Below is what I had originally written on October 3, 2014.
Have you ever been “called” to something? Over the last ten years I have imagined what kind of callings God had for my life and have played each one out in my head. Does God want me to be a missionary in a foreign country? Does He want me to be a foster parent? Does God want me to move to the inner city and welcome the neighborhood to my house? Maybe He wants us to just do our best in our current jobs and relationships. Seriously…I think way too much. I have many passions and hobbies and it seemed overwhelming (and sometimes still does). One thing we did know, Jon & I felt called to be a mom and dad. So, we said OK and tried to become parents….
A year went by. Nothing. We were still optimistic. I had read and heard that we shouldn’t be too worried until 1.5 to 2 years. Two years went by….still nothing (except for a lot of hope and then let downs). Jon & I talked quite a bit and decided that we did not want to spend all of our earnings on infertility treatments. It felt wrong for US. Some people wonder and still ask us why we chose NOT to undergo IVF or any of the other medical “help”. Simply, we didn’t feel like we were called to do that. We were going to trust God’s plan and wait on what He wanted us to do. Really….to some people this makes no sense and they just cannot understand. It is ok if you don’t understand. God’s call is unique for each family.
In February of 2011 we hit a low point…and we FINALLY decided to give this situation completely to God. I finally told some friends our struggle and released so much of the pain and disappointment that comes along with thinking that I was a failure. A couple months later I had the opportunity to move to a different job and was very happy with the changes and new outlook. Only a few weeks after working at the school, I received the phone call that changed our lives. A friend/former pastor called with an adoption situation. I immediately said yes….then told him I better ask Jon for sure! Jon was on board with the possibility right away! We had talked about adoption earlier on in our marriage and both had the idea that we might want to adopt after having a few biological kiddos.
God’s call can come to us in so many different ways. Ours came literally through a phone call.
Looking back, it was all in God’s plan and He was the one who set it in motion. Here is a short timeline of how Emerson found us.
-Years of disappointment and struggle to become parents.
-Went to a women’s retreat with church. Let go of anger. Gave it to God. Finally told my story to some friends and asked for prayer for the next step.
-My dream job opened up and I was hired!
-Around the same time, Kayli (Em’s birth mommy) moved to Indiana with her mom.
-Got to work side by side with an amazing woman (Kelli) who had gone through the same struggles as me. She had 1 son through adoption at the time I was hired. I got to witness her 2nd and 3rd and she helped me tremendously through our adoption journey. I am forever grateful to her!
-Got the call to possibly meet Kayli to see if we would be interested in adopting.
-Met a few weeks later and LOVED her and her family.
The rest of the story will have to wait for another time!
I hope that you are blessed by God’s love and grace by reading how he put together this story! My hope is that He is glorified by Jon & I writing and updating about our current journey as well. If you feel called to tell your story….DO IT! We have been so blessed by sharing our story and finding out how many people have been through or are going through similar stuff right now.
Thanks for reading!
I also would love to hear from YOU! What details of our adoption story do you want to hear? Go ahead…be bold and ask away!